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Here are the steps to go from disappointment to growth &, healing. Staying Friends When You Wanted More. Paul and I had been acquaintances for eight years.
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When I opened the door to his office one afternoon to offer our usual casual hello, an alchemical change packed a walloping charge through my body. When had my coworker become a handsome man with whom I suddenly wanted to share more than impersonal cafeteria trays in a crowd? I’m not sure what flipped the switch for me, but I’d already cheered him when he ran two marathons, listened when his wife left and they divorced, and written while he lived abroad twice serving a medical charity. We’ve raised money for causes and exchanged myriad e-mails about jobs, travels, and our families—my sister’s marriage, his siblings’ children being born. While my sudden unspoken desire was to deepen our intimacy, Paul’s signals proved alternately encouraging then confusing. A promised lunch together that fell through due to sickness, a lingering smile at my door one day turned into distracted “gotta run, department meeting†the next. Just as I began to understand that he wasn’t interested in me in that way, he’d come back, affectionate and confiding. His long-distance girlfriend had broken up with him or his relative was terminally ill. I’d hug him, nothing further needing to be said. Nothing further is exactly how our relationship played, while, to my great consternation, we hit a plateau between consolation and water cooler repartee. Last spring, Paul mentioned a woman he’d met at a conference. Something in his voice gave me the courage to ask if he was dating her. Truthfully, after his honest affirmation, Paul was the last person I wanted to spend more than five minutes with. Is it possible to make the leap back to platonic good-will? And how? Seven months later, I’ve discovered I can approach Paul and even enjoy his company for short stretches. Here are the steps from disappointment to personal growth and healing: 1. Take time alone to collect yourself. Take time to forgive. After years of feeling more than I acknowledged, I didn’t take it well when I learned about Paul’s new girlfriend. My roommate found me curled up on the sofa, breaking spontaneously into what I call “the ugly cry.†My appetite swan-dived. Insomnia was my only sleeping companion. Immediately, I abbreviated contact with Paul. No more hanging around at the end of the day to chitchat. No e-mail, no notes, no calls. Yes, it was painful, after many years of chatting up Paul whenever I thought of him or wanted to know what was going on in his life, but I also stopped dwelling. I started volunteering for a children’s charity. I took a hiking trip with friends. I reconnected with family. I read more novels than I thought possible. I also journaled for the first time in years. For two weeks straight, I woke to write five blessings. What started out as “I’m so happy I don’t have to face Paul today with puffy eyes and this knot in my heart†turned into observations of my cousin’s laughter, my neighbor’s new puppy’s floppy ears, a test drive of a car I didn’t need to buy, the pearlescent purples of a sunset. I enjoyed simple pleasures and took time alone to connect with and savor what is. Most of all, I needed to exercise the same compassion and tenderness towards myself that I offer to others. 2. Realize that feelings are fleeting. My first reaction to Paul’s dating: betrayal. A stream of questions haunted me: What if he marries this woman? They’ll have a baby. They’ll buy a house to remodel together and get a dog. I ran every irrational, worst-case scenario. Deep breaths and mindful meditation cooled my mind enough to realize that worst-case scenarios serve no one. Disappointment cannot be ignored and yet, like any emotion, it is a passing state, undulating like waves to the shoreline. We are impermanent beings in flux, and we cannot expect either our relationships or those in our lives to remain static. It was unrealistic of me to believe that Paul would always have time to talk on the phone or share a lunch much less that he would somehow choose to remain single without knowing, forthrightly, my feelings for him. While I could not rewind time and ask him out directly, I started to see my own irrationalities and inconsistencies as part of what had brought me to this path. My new yearnings, though seemingly powerful, were as fluctuating as those storm-tossed waves. 3.
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Here are the steps to go from disappointment to growth &, healing. Staying Friends When You Wanted More. Paul and I had been acquaintances for eight years.
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When I opened the door to his office one afternoon to offer our usual casual hello, an alchemical change packed a walloping charge through my body. When had my coworker become a handsome man with whom I suddenly wanted to share more than impersonal cafeteria trays in a crowd? I’m not sure what flipped the switch for me, but I’d already cheered him when he ran two marathons, listened when his wife left and they divorced, and written while he lived abroad twice serving a medical charity. We’ve raised money for causes and exchanged myriad e-mails about jobs, travels, and our families—my sister’s marriage, his siblings’ children being born. While my sudden unspoken desire was to deepen our intimacy, Paul’s signals proved alternately encouraging then confusing. A promised lunch together that fell through due to sickness, a lingering smile at my door one day turned into distracted “gotta run, department meeting†the next. Just as I began to understand that he wasn’t interested in me in that way, he’d come back, affectionate and confiding. His long-distance girlfriend had broken up with him or his relative was terminally ill. I’d hug him, nothing further needing to be said. Nothing further is exactly how our relationship played, while, to my great consternation, we hit a plateau between consolation and water cooler repartee. Last spring, Paul mentioned a woman he’d met at a conference. Something in his voice gave me the courage to ask if he was dating her. Truthfully, after his honest affirmation, Paul was the last person I wanted to spend more than five minutes with. Is it possible to make the leap back to platonic good-will? And how? Seven months later, I’ve discovered I can approach Paul and even enjoy his company for short stretches. Here are the steps from disappointment to personal growth and healing: 1. Take time alone to collect yourself. Take time to forgive. After years of feeling more than I acknowledged, I didn’t take it well when I learned about Paul’s new girlfriend. My roommate found me curled up on the sofa, breaking spontaneously into what I call “the ugly cry.†My appetite swan-dived. Insomnia was my only sleeping companion. Immediately, I abbreviated contact with Paul. No more hanging around at the end of the day to chitchat. No e-mail, no notes, no calls. Yes, it was painful, after many years of chatting up Paul whenever I thought of him or wanted to know what was going on in his life, but I also stopped dwelling. I started volunteering for a children’s charity. I took a hiking trip with friends. I reconnected with family. I read more novels than I thought possible. I also journaled for the first time in years. For two weeks straight, I woke to write five blessings. What started out as “I’m so happy I don’t have to face Paul today with puffy eyes and this knot in my heart†turned into observations of my cousin’s laughter, my neighbor’s new puppy’s floppy ears, a test drive of a car I didn’t need to buy, the pearlescent purples of a sunset. I enjoyed simple pleasures and took time alone to connect with and savor what is. Most of all, I needed to exercise the same compassion and tenderness towards myself that I offer to others. 2. Realize that feelings are fleeting. My first reaction to Paul’s dating: betrayal. A stream of questions haunted me: What if he marries this woman? They’ll have a baby. They’ll buy a house to remodel together and get a dog. I ran every irrational, worst-case scenario. Deep breaths and mindful meditation cooled my mind enough to realize that worst-case scenarios serve no one. Disappointment cannot be ignored and yet, like any emotion, it is a passing state, undulating like waves to the shoreline. We are impermanent beings in flux, and we cannot expect either our relationships or those in our lives to remain static. It was unrealistic of me to believe that Paul would always have time to talk on the phone or share a lunch much less that he would somehow choose to remain single without knowing, forthrightly, my feelings for him. While I could not rewind time and ask him out directly, I started to see my own irrationalities and inconsistencies as part of what had brought me to this path. My new yearnings, though seemingly powerful, were as fluctuating as those storm-tossed waves. 3.
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